(via the-zesty-bill-clinton)Source: brynndowney
Check it out. It is official. I have been admitted to RWTH Aachen for an MSc in Software Systems Engineering! I’ll be starting in October and am absolutely thrilled to have this opportunity.
To make it even more official, I have just booked a one-way flight to Madrid for September. One-way. Ain’t no coming back from that! Yeah, you might be wondering why Madrid when I’m studying in Germany. The shortest path from A to B is a straight line. But the most enjoyable path doesn’t have to be!
There are still a lot of details to work out and questions to be answered: Where am I going to live? How am I going to pay for this all? Am I crazy? But that will settled in time. For now, though. I have admittance and I have tickets booked. And that’s enough.
Tonight, as I walked home in the beautiful spring air, I sat down on a porch swing and cried because I felt like I wasn’t good enough. Yes, you read that right. I had just graduated with honors from a wonderful university. I had just made my friends, family, and all who have helped me along the way extremely proud. By many many different definitions, I am successful. Yet I cried because I didn’t think I was good enough. Or rather, because I realized how many times before in my life I had settled for “good” instead of pushing for greatness simply because I didn’t believe I had greatness in me. I know I’m not alone in self-doubt, though I may appear outwardly confident to some. So I want to share this moment publicly in the hopes that somebody finds it helpful.